Remember my friend 'K'? :] Well after finals, he came over... and we ended up on my bed... cuddling a bit... and totally totally making out. With a bit of touchiness and everything.

Oh my.
Oh my. Oh my. Oh my.
How did this happen...?

I can't believe I let this happen. I can't believe it happened.

I feel like it should be a dream. I would've thought it was a dream if it wasn't for my messed up hair and really red lips after. :/ Oh my goodness.

I don't know about you, but I generally try to avoid making out with my best guy friends. This never happens. My guy friends have always been nothing more than friends.

Maybe it's because I just feel comfortable around him. Like he's almost family. Except TOTALLY not, haha. I don't know how it got that far. Or even how that happened.

I think my roommate is catching on. Oh gosh.

I don't even remember. His face was close to mine. Our light was off because I was taking a nap. All of the sudden, he kissed me. I gave him a quick peck (goodness, I have no idea why) and a few seconds later we were full on making out. Oh myy goodness. I'm sorry. Just in disbelief. Maybe this is all a dream, and I'll wake up.

Holy guacamole! I haven't been on xanga... in an eternity. Hah, feels reminiscent of New Moon. That made no sense, but whatev.

All I can say is I LOVE COLLEGE. I've made so many new friends, met so many new people, and I'm very happy with my professors. There are definitely downers-- i.e. midterms, homework, sucky schedules, etc., but most of my experiences thus far have been positive.

Boys, boys, boys, boys. I'll get to that in a second... but firstly, I'd like to write about school in general (so I don't sound like some of my male-crazed amigas).

College is what I've been waiting for. My parents have always said that they think I'd be happier in college. There are more people like me here; students who really want to work hard, and so many MORE opportunities. I wish I could be in college forever, and it's only just begun.

I love dorming. :) My friend and I have been planning to room together forever, so rushing wasn't really ever in the picture. I think I would be happy in either, but I'm definitely glad I chose to dorm. I have so many complaints about the residence halls (i.e. showering/bathrooms, temperature, and noisy neighbors), but the people I've met through dorming makes up for it all. I love a few of my floormates; I'm definitely glad that I'm living on campus. :)

BOYS. Ugh. Haha. Well, not exactly 'ugh' but... well. I just don't know where to start. To be honest, I tried to stay out of boy drama in high school. It might seem weird, but I don't actually know who my best high school friend has ever crushed on. It's not like I never had boy drama; it's just that I stayed out of it when I could. I guess lots of boys have liked me... it's just that I never liked any of them... at least at the same time. I lose interest if I can't see anything work out, and I have a tendency to not let things get too far.

Now that college has started, I feel like I'm drowning in boy drama. The thing is, you get to know people fast, much faster than high school. You see certain people every single day, for hours at a time-- and relationships move about 9823498234 faster than they might otherwise.

I'm kind of a good girl. I don't really drink, party, smoke-- even jaywalk. But somehow, I found myself sleeping in the same bed and cuddling with one of my guy friends. Say WHATT!?! I've had a bf before, I guess... but it didn't last long, and I can't honestly say I actually liked him. So how did I end up getting myself into this situation not even a month into college?

Let's call my guyfriend K. :) I've met him two years ago through one of my closest friends. We've chatted online and seen each other maybe a couple times since... and I may have had a tiny crush on him. :) I've gotten to know him better, and I definitely trust him. He's one of the sweetest, most funny, and cutest guys I've ever met, but I think he's a tad bit too big of a flirt for me. I spent the night at his dorm earlier; I was hanging out with him late, and he didn't want to walk me back to my dorm in the pouring stormy rain. So, he said I could just spend the night at his place.

So, I told him I'd be fine with sleeping at the foot of his bed, and keep to myself. He of course, refused... and so I got under the covers. Next thing I know, his arms are around me... and I'm starting to fall asleep. When he thought I was asleep, he got a bit... well... touchy. And in the morning, we got a bit more cuddly.

A few nights later, he spent the night at my dorm for similar reasons. He was a bit more touchy... we got into a couple awkward positions... and well... I'm not quite sure what else to say. He tried to kiss me more than once; he kissed my cheek/neck/ears.... but I wouldn't let him kiss me on the lips. He liked another girl at the time... and I felt like it would just make it more complicated. We talked a lot; I admitted I liked him at one point, and he said he had felt the same.

Let's just say I think he got over the other girl; we hung out a lot, and he became a possibility... but... lately, I've come to realize that he's a bit of a flirt. He thinks lots of girls are cute, and I'm about 2398293% sure he now has a crush on this one really cute girl with a boyfriend, haha.

Makes things complicated, but yeah. I don't know anymore. I guess I'll just post more later. I needed to get that much out.